e-mail to Richard

I just thought I would share with you what God has been doing in the last two days. (and yes, you may share this with the team as well) Yesterday, I spent time continuing to think on and ponder our session on Monday evening. I sensed God speaking to me, ever so gently. This morning, I knew I wanted to get up and do some reading, but didn't know if I would wake up early enough to do that as well as watch the tv program I missed on Monday evening. It was scheduled to be on this morning at 6:00 am. Well, wouldn't you know it, God, in His faithfulness, stirred me to wakefulness around 5:15. As I lay there praying, knowing I couldn't get back to sleep and being afraid that if I did, I would miss the show, I decided to get up and bring with me the book I mentioned Monday, A God to call Father. I have read parts of this book before (over the past 2-3 years) and never have I gone farther than the chapter I started reading again today. I have attached it so you can read it. I know it will put a huge grin on your face. Anyhow, I prayed the prayer within, with my own words, as I was reading it. As I look on all the things that have been going on in the past month, from the things I have been sharing with my friend Kathy (thy word is a lamp unto my feet...the covenant with Abraham...he followed, even though he didn't know where he was going...etc) I find that God has been speaking to me and drawing me to this point of decision. He reminded me on Monday, and continues to remind me that, yes, I WANT to have a deeper relationship with Him, but I have NOT been WILLING. I have been too afraid. Well, I am still afraid. But, I feel, especially after this mornings reading, that I am finally willing. Still afraid, but knowing that God is the one who has led me to this place and He is the one that will continue to lead me.

Thank you so much, again, for all you have done, through Him, to help bring me to this point. Please, (and I know you will) continue to pray for His strength for me to continue in this journey. As scared as I am of what is to come, I so look forward to having a Father I can truly call Daddy.

In HIS care, and in HIS love, and in HIS arms I know I am wrapped, Amy